II.
I have lot of things to rant today.
So, kita akan go on in order, okay? memang tabiat merungut ni tak baik, tapi hakikatnya, memang nobody akan lari from doing this. Often times, kita lupa yang others had it more harder than us, but again, kita buat salah.
It's not good to bottle things up ㅡ i was never a type to keep things inside for so long. There shall be time, where everything will start to brim at the corner of the bottle, I will burst. Total disaster. Mulut aku ni jenis puaka, so aku betul-betul nak avoid drpd benda tu terjadi.
Thing was, I'll bring myself to make anyone else as my best friend where I could trust enough to understand my inside and outside like my sister didㅡ Man, i miss her. Well, I'm not picky, but how you supposed to make a best friend out of someone who couldn't even comfort you and to share problems ㅡ even the smallest details. Fake friends. Artificial.
A friendship that mostly berdasarkan rasa polite.
It just, how could I when they seemed to be close to someone's else? okay, aku bukannya nak kata aku ni possessive. You can be friend with everyone you like, but, I hate to share. And it'll make me doubt you with my secrets, because I'm afraid, you will tell your other bff about it. Which supposed to be a secret between us alone.
Tu masalah orang melayu sekarang. Lebih-lebih perempuan ni. Cakap je kawan, tapi belakang kau, habis rahsia kau dia ceritakan.
So, glimpse of cerita yang ak nak ceritakan tu semuanya berkaitan dengan yang atas.
I expected a lot, tahu? Engineer student to be more tough and mature to take in challenge. Well, my bad. Wrong move, I did there. Ada seorang ex-classmate aku tukar major semata-mata major kitaorg takdek lelaki. Yang ni, aku cerita lain kali. Sekarang ni, pasal one of my roommate. Let call her Alea.
So, kalau kau nampak Alea ni, your first impression is, dia nampak cam budak2 baik. Tak macam aku yang nampak serabai 24/7 walaupun I did try hard. Dia tak pernah tinggal solat, that's bonus I could gave to her. I actually liked her. Initially. But then, everything changed.
look could be deceiving after all.
Aku tak tahu mula bila, tapi si Alea ni jenis manusia yang pantang kena tegur sebab, al maklumlah, semua siblings perempuan so ayah pun manjakan. Still, is that an excuse? Bullshit. At first, aku ada tegur kenapa tak beli lagi payung bila tahu hujan selalu sangat turun, tapi entah kenapa, dia snappedㅡ hentak kaki terus tarik muncung tiga empat inci.
My words has no malice. Just plain, "Eh, Alea. Kau dah tahu selalu hujan. Kenapa tak beli lagi hujan."
Dia dengan automatically buat apa yang aku cakap tu sambil tarik muka, balas "Eh, ayah Alea tak dek masa lagi nak ambil Alea untuk beli payung."
It becomed a burden bila payung tu kau kena share ramai2, so akhirnya aku fed up gila, aku blah, redah hujan. Hilang mood.
Suara aku memang lantang, and sometimes bunyi cam aku marah bila bercakap. It doesn't really help bila kau ada muka resting-bitch face. So, people always make conclusion yang kau marah and very unfriendly when I'm the opposite. Termasuk la dia ni. I don't know berapa kali nak kena ulang kat dia yang it was my natural way of communicating tapi tak faham2 jugak. It's Malay tau aku guna. Bukan English lagi.
Saturday 9 February 2019 • 22:38
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II.
I have lot of things to rant today.
So, kita akan go on in order, okay? memang tabiat merungut ni tak baik, tapi hakikatnya, memang nobody akan lari from doing this. Often times, kita lupa yang others had it more harder than us, but again, kita buat salah.
It's not good to bottle things up ㅡ i was never a type to keep things inside for so long. There shall be time, where everything will start to brim at the corner of the bottle, I will burst. Total disaster. Mulut aku ni jenis puaka, so aku betul-betul nak avoid drpd benda tu terjadi.
Thing was, I'll bring myself to make anyone else as my best friend where I could trust enough to understand my inside and outside like my sister didㅡ Man, i miss her. Well, I'm not picky, but how you supposed to make a best friend out of someone who couldn't even comfort you and to share problems ㅡ even the smallest details. Fake friends. Artificial.
A friendship that mostly berdasarkan rasa polite.
It just, how could I when they seemed to be close to someone's else? okay, aku bukannya nak kata aku ni possessive. You can be friend with everyone you like, but, I hate to share. And it'll make me doubt you with my secrets, because I'm afraid, you will tell your other bff about it. Which supposed to be a secret between us alone.
Tu masalah orang melayu sekarang. Lebih-lebih perempuan ni. Cakap je kawan, tapi belakang kau, habis rahsia kau dia ceritakan.
So, glimpse of cerita yang ak nak ceritakan tu semuanya berkaitan dengan yang atas.
I expected a lot, tahu? Engineer student to be more tough and mature to take in challenge. Well, my bad. Wrong move, I did there. Ada seorang ex-classmate aku tukar major semata-mata major kitaorg takdek lelaki. Yang ni, aku cerita lain kali. Sekarang ni, pasal one of my roommate. Let call her Alea.
So, kalau kau nampak Alea ni, your first impression is, dia nampak cam budak2 baik. Tak macam aku yang nampak serabai 24/7 walaupun I did try hard. Dia tak pernah tinggal solat, that's bonus I could gave to her. I actually liked her. Initially. But then, everything changed.
look could be deceiving after all.
Aku tak tahu mula bila, tapi si Alea ni jenis manusia yang pantang kena tegur sebab, al maklumlah, semua siblings perempuan so ayah pun manjakan. Still, is that an excuse? Bullshit. At first, aku ada tegur kenapa tak beli lagi payung bila tahu hujan selalu sangat turun, tapi entah kenapa, dia snappedㅡ hentak kaki terus tarik muncung tiga empat inci.
My words has no malice. Just plain, "Eh, Alea. Kau dah tahu selalu hujan. Kenapa tak beli lagi hujan."
Dia dengan automatically buat apa yang aku cakap tu sambil tarik muka, balas "Eh, ayah Alea tak dek masa lagi nak ambil Alea untuk beli payung."
It becomed a burden bila payung tu kau kena share ramai2, so akhirnya aku fed up gila, aku blah, redah hujan. Hilang mood.
Suara aku memang lantang, and sometimes bunyi cam aku marah bila bercakap. It doesn't really help bila kau ada muka resting-bitch face. So, people always make conclusion yang kau marah and very unfriendly when I'm the opposite. Termasuk la dia ni. I don't know berapa kali nak kena ulang kat dia yang it was my natural way of communicating tapi tak faham2 jugak. It's Malay tau aku guna. Bukan English lagi.
Saturday 9 February 2019 • 22:38
